And even when your hope is gone , move along

Woke up pretty early this morning. Wanted to catch She's The Man on OKTO. I know it's an overdue movie but i so love the story line. It's just some unique ways how someone falls in love, i like this one especially. Apart from how determined dear Viola was to beat a group of boys in a game of soccer. Honestly, i find my language getting, hideous (?) Right, i can't find the right words to use. Oh well, if you can't be them, beat them!


And i especially has a huge crush on the lead actor, Channing Tatum A.K.A Duke Orsino. He have sexy lips and nice body. Cool ey?

Well apart from all that, something has been bothering me. I don't why, contradicting as it seem, i realise i still have feelings for Awan. And i have observed that every single time i go out with the usual, whenever there's Awan then Dickie will appear from nowhere. Like yesterday, Dickie caught me staring at Awan. How not, that ass was sitting beside Awan. Coming from my own thoughts, i have nothing against them anymore. Like everyone else, we're cool with one another. But i cannot lie anymore. Neither can i pretend. At times, i long for Awan to be by side, like the good old times. Something triggers me, when someone pointed out that among all 9 boys, Awan is the only one who doesn't smoke. Cute as it seem, such a sweet innocence. I like the sound of that. But i know, his feelings long fade. Just like our memories. If only we're still together, this year would be our 2nd. Oh Hid, keep on dreaming baby. Ironic. And hell, supposed HI and Dickie never came into my life, probably Awan is still around. Fuck it.

Oh Hid, keep on dreaming baby. You know what i mean.