It's hard to stay inside my head when words keep pouring out

What's wrong in being a pessimist?

What's wrong in being a optimistic pessimist?

Everything is oh so wrong and you'll get so messed up.

I get so fickle of things that most times, I don't get me at all.

I have no idea what I am to do now. 

I don't know what I am to do with life now.

I'm just clueless as to what I am supposed to do.

But being a optimistic pessimist, I know things will get better.

My relationship with people will get better,

my non-existent love life will get better,

my finance will and should get better,

and me, I will get the better better.

But right now, you know what should get better?

My chest/heart. I need you more than anything else.

It'll get better, we'll get better.